10.05.2010

Finding Myself




I am in a weird place right now, my nights sprinkled with feedings and burpings of a sweet little guy named Henry, and my days filled with thoughts of where we'll be this time next year. It's our last year in Cleveland. Come Spring, we will be loading a moving truck, headed (hopefully) back West to the land of our upbringing. I don't know where that truck will stop and unload and being a planner, I don't like the uncertainty. I do like the thought of dental school being done, but I just wish I had a crystal ball and knew where we were going to end up after this phase of our lives. But, what kind of life will we have? Does it matter if we live in Pendleton or Missoula? Will I be able to thrive in a town with the same population as my high school? Does happiness mean having a Target within a ten-minute drive? I would love to know your thoughts on this. I want to know how one decides where she wants to live indefinitely. This is big stuff, at least for me, right now. Let's hear what you have to say!

9 comments:

Kat said...

Right now we are trying to get in to a place that is pretty much out in the middle of nowhere. If we don't get in there then who knows where it will be but as bad as our first option sounds I know that the others are worse so yeah, I'm pretty much scared to death right now.

PRP said...

Yes, Target is crucial.

Aside from that, anywhere that is relatively close to family was my criteria. If there was an emergency, I wanted to be able to be with family in a few hours time. That is why we live smack dab in the middle of where our families are...three hours to mine, four to his. It was our compromise and has been one of the best decisions we ever made.

Jensen said...

I think it comes down to what you really want from life and your family (meaning you, your husband, and children). When you sit and day dream about what you want for the future do you see a big city or a small town? No matter where you end up "Home is where the Heart is". I think that no matter where a person lives it can be the best place or the worst place it is all about how you look at. PRAY! Your Heavenly Father knows best! But seriously when you sit and day dream about your future what do you see?

blindblogger said...

Pillar to post. This is what my Branch President said his wife did for him all their years, followed him from pillar to post. After hearing that I stopped worrying (so much) about where I would end up living. 1 Ne 18:25 hit me in a new way. They get to the LOP and find horses, goats, cow, ox, gold, silver, copper. They were like, wow! We can live easy again. The equivalent of that for me is shopping malls, easy shopping (target, walmart, Costco)places where you can buy meat that you don't have to scour clean. What can I say though we just got the copycat of Jamba, JambO juice here. And I found the German store Metro, which has powdered sugar, brown sugar, best foods mayo, and frozen chicken. That means I don't have to load up my suitcases with mayo anymore. I would love to see you end up in Pendelton. Anywhere you go people will love you and you will thrive. You know how to work into the soil of a new community. Wherever it is, I hope it's a place that will bring you the most happiness and least amount of stress. Best luck!

Lori said...

Yes Target = Happiness :)
You will thrive no matter where you are Sarah. You have that special touch! And if you can be happy in Cleveland. . .you can be happy anywhere.
Tee hee. . .but really.

The Tom and Donna Johnson Family said...

I'm sure you will be able to "bloom where you're planted"- even if doesn't have the perfect conditions you were hoping- you will be able to make it productive :-)

jayna said...

as long as you are in the west, for crying out loud. (not that i will see you anymore then than now, but it would be nice knowing you were within reach all the same). target is usually a good mark to hit with a potential place of residence, but at the same time, there is charm in smaller places. magic, even. i am also a planner, so i can totally understand wanting to know.... the good news is, time flies and spring will be here before you know it.

miss you tons.
j

Kellie said...

Living somewhere indefinitely is such a weird thought to me that I have a hard time processing it. I would love to live in Texas and know I could live there forever and be happy, but Nathan would like to live a little further west and closer to his family. Knowing how hard it's been for me to live away from my family, I understand his feelings. Like you, we have no idea where we'll be after graduation. Wherever the Army sends us. I guess we could get somewhat of a say in where we go, but not for sure and even then our current list is pretty eclectic. I'd love to visit some of the places and get a feel for them first.

btw, Henry is adorable and I can't wait to get a better look at him and hold him!

naturaljoy said...

I don't know if you'll still check this but this is what I have to say. I've lived in pretty much every kind of place it seems and the long and short of it is it totally absolutely doesn't matter. Those 3 pictures you just posted really is all that matters and you'll get by with whatever is in your town, the other people do right? I actually am at the point where I think I'd be happy living somewhere with no big box stores, makes you a little more creative, those stores were never really a bargain anyway. happy Henry, look for my mail to you.