3.31.2008
3.28.2008
3.27.2008
I tried uploading pictures twice now and I figured since I've changed two poopy diapers, cleaned up an apple mess and read some Domino mag and they still haven't uploaded, it wasn't worth the wait. They were just pictures of the kids in the bath, and frankly, I'm even sick of seeing pictures of them.
I'm just tired of being a single parent. I am very trunky. I babysat for a friend who's husband will be done with dental school in a few short weeks. I was so jealous! [I know, I know, take this whole epistle in stride: I'm just venting. Things could be alot worse, I know. ]
And, don't go to the Cleveland Children's Museum during Spring Break week. It's a madhouse. I've never seen it that busy and that ridiculously impossible to navigate through. And the parking...we won't even go there.
All I'm saying is that I just need a break. The only problem is since I've been with child, all of my creative, project-excited juices have been sapped. Do I force sewing something to feel domestic? Do I go through the motions of making sugar cookies just to feel like I've still got the Betty Crocker gene? Why am I so indecisive about everything? And, why do I lose my temper so stinking much? Finn is probably sick of me too. Well, that makes two of us.
3.25.2008
3.24.2008
3.21.2008
I went to a special Easter meeting this week given by a man who has studied my religion and it's connection to this area's history for many, many years. We talked about the last week of Christ's mortal life and he challenged us to read about each of the events according to the day of the Easter week. He played a slideshow with pictures of the Savior corresponding to the music of Handel's "Messiah." It touched deep down into the core of who I am, a place seldom rattled or disturbed.

I rarely share my feelings about the Savior to the public audience, but I felt like it changed my life to learn more about him during this Easter season. I don't understand how he took upon Him my sins and those of all mankind. It is truly miraculous and He showed the greatest love of any being who has lived. I am sure that just as He gave His life and died, He rose from the grave and conquered death for us all as well. He was born in a stable, lived a humble, service-oriented life, and did for us what we could not do for ourselves.
So, with all of the egg-hunting, candy-eating and ham-baking this weekend (which I will be doing as well), I hope a little reflection and introspection is also a part.
Happy Easter to each of you!
3.20.2008
3.19.2008
3.18.2008
3.17.2008
3.14.2008

- I have always liked having green eyes. They're not super-common and when I wear green they look even more green.
- I like being blonde. I'm kind of strawberry-blonde like my mom and I can't afford to highlight it now, so it is pretty dark blonde.
- I like my teeth. Dr. Dart put braces on them when I was 16 and I still wear my retainer some nights, so they're still pretty straight. I also whitened them in college. (That's not really natural beauty, but that still counts, right?)
- I like that I don't have very nice, long strong nails. I keep them short. My toe and finger nails must be short or it drives me crazy. I like that because it means I don't have to fuss about them.
- I am glad I have a prominent forehead. This has been a blessing and a curse my whole life, but today I think it's cool. Finn has it too. I like the soft baby hairs along my forehead hairline.
Okay, so I just have to mention some things I don't like and never have:
- Having invisible eyebrows.
- Having lots of moles.
- Being so fair I have to wear sunscreen everyday in the Summer.
Overall, I'm thankful for a body that functions well, serves my needs and is amazingly complex.
I loved this quote from Russell M. Nelson about our heart:
"The heart has four delicate valves that control the direction of blood flow. They open and close more than 100,000 times a day- 36 million times a year. Unless altered by disease, they are able to withstand this stress almost indefinitely. No man-made material can be flexed so frequently and so long without breaking. Each day, the adult heart pumps enough fluid to fill a 2,000-gallon tank. At the crest of the heart is a source of electricity that transmits energy down special lines, causing myriads of muscle fibers to work together."
Amazing, miraculous, divine: our beautiful bodies!
3.13.2008
And what little tot isn't cute in just her diaper? I thought I'd share this with you as an omen for a happy Thursday!
3.12.2008
I think about food alot. I eat food alot. I have to. At eight weeks along, I have figured that if I eat enough often enough, I won't throw up. It seems to work. (My two previous pregnancies were pretty pukey and I tried lots of different medications. I'm so glad that this time eating has proven effective.)
So, anyways, here are some of my random thoughts on food lately:
- Sugar gives me headaches.
- Just because you are craving muffins, cake, cookies, and most starchy things in general doesn't mean you should eat them.
- Nature's bounties are the perfect thing to nourish you and your baby.
- Sometimes eating a peanut butter and jelly sandwich at three in the morning is the only thing that will help you not feel nauseous (like last night)
- Eating small, balanced snacks throughout the day is probably the best thing for me right now
- No, you can never get enough hummus and pita chips or avocadoes. That's a personal law.
- Why does babbaganoush sound so good right now?
- Chocolate milk is so good. I could drink gallons of it a day, but good thing I don't.
Here is Finn testing out the new rocker. I give it a 8 for looks, 6 for comfort (it's a little on the hard side for something upholstered) and 9 for rockability. Overall, I'm glad we got it.
3.11.2008
3.08.2008
- mail truck stuck
- snowplow stuck
- four huge snowplows rush by, hurling snow at us
- the library closed due to weather