Smashed
Poor Finn. He has had bump after bonk lately and it's starting to show. And speaking of bumps and bonks, I feel like I'm a little "banged up" too. The other night Travis brought up maybe staying here for an additional year (for what's like a dental residency), and it knocked the wind out of my sails. Here I was thinking we were halfway done with his schooling and being in the poor house and renting. Ha! Little do I know. And I think I've been feeling sorry for myself ever since. (It doesn't help that all three of my kids have some sort of sickness and Travis has been studying his brains out/gone alot lately). I know I need an attitude adjustment. Nothing I can buy or eat will help what I've got. I just need to buck up, accept things as they are and not as I think they should be. But it's so hard. Raising little kids is hard. Getting up at all hours of the night is hard. I know I have alot to be grateful for. I just feel a little stuck lately. This too shall pass, I know. My mind knows and my attitude doesn't yet.
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Sarah good luck. You're doing a great job.
You will get through it and look back on these days as some of the best! (i'm sure you've heard that before) When my hubby was in dental school, I also had 3 little ones, and it felt as if it would never end. It was hard, but I truly do look back at that time with sweet memories of my little babies and a happy, simpler time.
hang in there. i was complaining to my friend the other day about how frustrated i was with two out-of-control toddlers, always cleaning up poop and wiping their murals off my walls, etc. she said to enjoy the simplicity of this time. she said "messes are easy to clean up. you can clean up a mess. my 5th grader has a girlfriend. you can't clean that up." it made me grateful to be in this stage of life and not worrying about rebelious teenagers...
Yeah. Life stinks sometimes. When you accept that, things change.
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I've been thinking about this post for a while. I guess since Tuesday when you posted it. I wanted to say something helpful, and after reading the comments I think the most helpful one is from M-A. I'm grateful Megan doesn't know what a boyfriend is yet. But the truth is, I'm right there with you. I haven't had Nathan say we'd be here an extra year, but that's because of the Army. We have no clue where we'll be in three years, which I guess isn't too uncommon at this stage. And yes, raising little kids is HARD WORK. But I wouldn't want anyone else raising my kids. I got a flier in the mail today for a daycare program that is trying to look like a preschool. It gave itself away when it said it was open 5AM to midnight. I feel bad for the kids who are in those places for hours and hours at a time and rarely see or spend real time with their parents. I know I'm not the best at spending quality time with my kids, but I'm home and I try. I know you are a great mom. I see all the things you do with your kids and family and I see their smiles and sweetness in the pictures and on Sunday and I know that even though it's hard, you are doing a great job. Keep it up. You're right, it will pass, and more will come. But it will all be worth it and you'll do great at it all.
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