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I can't help but remember lately what I used to play as a child. I would pretend I was a busy mom. I would run errands, dropping children off in my "mini van" (which was really an aquamarine bike which braked when I pushed the pedals backward). The orchard became my town and each tree was a different stop on my route of child shuttling. The front porch was my house which extended into the ivy patch next to it. It was so fun. I could only imagine what it would be like to REALLY have these things: a minivan, children, a real house and all of the responsibility of having a family.
Tonight I had an epiphany that THIS time (right now) is what I have waited all those years for. The children I have are the ones I have longed for since my childhood. This house RIGHT NOW is where I am living out my dreams. These morning drives to and from preschool are the very errands I would play out in my world of make believe. Amazing discovery for a woman of 28.5 years.
I took this picture above to capture the scene in which I received this realization. The stockings are hung because I made them out of thrifted sweaters and glued felt monograms on them. The tree is lit because I hung the lights on it. (Travis cut it down). Miles is rocking in his swing because I wanted a baby and we were blessed to have him (and two more upstairs sawing logs). All of these things are because this is my house and I have made it the way I want it. It might not be cozy and "home" for anyone else but me.
Isn't that what our homes should be?
5 comments:
Sarah you're my hero. I remember being at your house once, kids running all around and we were talking to your mom, she was eating her lunch at the bar or something, and I remember thinking wow, this lady has it together. 7 kids, big house and yard, and I remember thinking, I don't know if I could do that role. Well I still don't have 7 kids and a big house and yard, but it's amazing how you can handle things as they come eh? I love the snapshot. Have a great Christmas.
Good for you! Better late than never! Enjoy your little family and the wonderful home you've created.
what a wonderful conclusion! it's nice to have those moments every once in a while amidst the chaos of life. it's times like those that keep me living for more.
how wonderful!
I always remind myself, "You make your own happiness", and it looks like you have done just that and in the process made a few dreams come true. Lovely post.
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